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Only 1 Person?

Lately I've come to accept that different persons provide different things in my life, some people are permanents, the corner stones of my life - like my parents & sisters, kids.

Then there are my various friends, each unique individual that adds their own streak of colour in the painting of my life.

At different moments of my life, I need different people - not one can provide a everything that I need. And I think its unfair to expect one person to do it all.

Like most people, I once believed in the happily ever after (I hesitate now to read these to my kids lest they to grow up with this delusion) but the school of hard knocks have thought me that its happy now that matters.

And I am in-charge of my own happiness. It cannot hinge on other people or circumstances. Its not easy but I am determined that I will find some happiness in just about every moment in life, and extending that thought, everyone in my life brings me happiness, albeit in differing degrees.

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Unknown said…
Hello there...I meant to write down some comments...but you know what they say ..about mice and men...
Anyway its interesting what you have put down. Hope you will allow me to put in my two sen worth...I think we grow up with different perceptions on how we would like our lives to be. The harsh reality is that it seldom works out the way we dream it would. You at least are taking control and are in charge of your own happiness. I sometimes feel trapped in this existence I am in...it all seems so in vain and the reward is miniscule compared to the effort...ahhh what else can i say?
13 May 2008 at 06:02
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