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Happy 2009

Its the 1st day of the new year and I'm feeling melancholy.

The previous year was interesting - the most apt description I can think of at the moment (my exhausted body + alcohol lubricated brain can think up at this moment). I think I sort of found myself last year - fell in love with me instead of just living.

In the past few months & especially in the last few days, I've taken a good hard look at ME - I've realised what an amazing creature that I am and I've also confronted myself with some pretty ugly truths about myself. Most significant is that, while I am usually living for others (seemingly), I am, in fact, pretty selfish - I do things for myself - I like that others like me & so I do what I do. And there are times where I'm only thinking of myself.

So, my promise to myself this year is that I will get my act together - love myself & love others as well. Just for who I am & who they are, without any hidden agenda. And as for me, given the things I've discovered about myself, I will refuse to allow me to sabotage myself by being less than what I can be.

I will not be lazy about being the best that I can be.

It is so easy to fall into the trap of continuing just the way things are - so much easier & less taxing. But I'm not being fair to me!

So, 2009 will see me working harder than I have ever been at realising my true potential - using all the God-given strengths that I have & minimising my weaknesses.

I have been wonderfully made & this year is my year!

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